unknown first love [part 6]

After that wonderful night,
I and AJ didn't see each other for at least a week.
During those time, we call each other everyday.
As usual, we just talked about everyday things that happens to our lives.
We tried to avoid one topic--Love Life.


AJ: Hey do you know my mom really likes you?!
Me: Aww. I like her too. But not in a like-like way. Baka patayin ako ng dad mo! [You're dad might kill me.]
AJ: Tangek ka talaga! Gago. [You're so dumb. Bastard.]
Me: Ito naman, joke lang. [I'm just kidding.]
AJ & Me: HAHA.


I was really glad that her mom likes me.
That's one vote, one more to go. Alright.
Okay, I'm kidding. I don't think her and I would work.
She was a tomboy. I think? But she really is cute.
Plus I don't even know if she feels the same about me.
I call her "Perfect Mistake".


Me: Oy. Tagal na natin di nag-kikita ha. Busy ka? [Hey, we haven't seen each other for a while now. Are you busy?]
AJ: Medyo eh. Finals kasi sa school. So review ako to the S-power. Late na ako umuuwe. [A little. It's our finals in school. So I've been reviewing a lot. I go home really late.]
Me: Kaya naman pala di na tayo nag-kikita sa jeep eh. [That's why I haven't seen you in the jeepney.]
AJ: May napapansin ako sayo ha. May gusto ka sakin ano? [I'm noticing something. You like me huh?]
Me: Nakooo ha. Tigilan mo ako. Eww ka. May gatas pa ako sa labi for that. [Stop it. Eww. I still have milk in my lips for that.]
AJ: Tangek. Niloloko ka lang eh. Offended. [Stupid! I'm just kidding. You're offended.]
Me: Try asking me again next time.

When she asked me that SHOCKING question, it took me a while to answer.
I felt something when I heard that. Was she only kidding?
I didn't know what's to answer.
I wasn't sure if she was for reals.
Maybe she wasn't kidding when she asked that.
Only took it back when I answered.
Maybe.....

end of part 6

unknown first love [part 5]

[Okay. I'm tired of saying "secret" all the time and people asking me or even bugging me if "secret" is a gal or a guy. I wanted this to be very anonymous since people think my sex is very "contraversial." I give up. I'll tell you WHAT "secret" is.
She's a SHE. Well I don't know exactly. She was kind of tomboy, actually she was a FULL TIME lesbian that time. I think? Let's call her AJ. I can just smell her gayness. LOL. What happened to us? Go on and read.]


So there she was, smiling and waving at us. She looked so cute. I wasn't sure if she's a "REAL" girl since whenever I'm with her my gaydar just go nuts. I don't care if she's is one, all I know I really enjoy being with her.

Me: Hey AJ, This is my good friend Jana. Jana this is AJ.
Jana: Hello. Nice meeting you, finally. Dami kong narinig tungkol sayo! [I heard so much about you.]
AJ: Same here. HAHA. I hope that's a good thing.
Me: Of course it is! ^^ Where do you want to go?
AJ: Let's go to Baliuag, let's eat dinner there. Or do you prefer somewhere?
Jana: No, It's okay for us. Game na game kami dyan! [We're so on!]


We rode a Baliuag Transit Bus since it will be easier and much less crowded.
When we got inside the bus, I and AJ sat next to each other, i was in the window side while Jana
is in the seat next to us. I was glad that Jana and AJ was getting along and they're seem comfortable. Jana told AJ some funny stories about me, I was so embarass. But over all it was a nice ride.
Before six o`clock we got at the Baliuag Transit bus station near Expression and Aliw Cinema.
Infront of Expression, there's a stands of vendor. The ambiance was really cool. It's like a different Baliuag at night. We decided to order a sizzling plate of sisig, rice, pork BBQ, and calamari enough for the three of us. While we were waiting for the meal. Wa walked around the church. It was wierd. I've never walked here before at night. It was a complete different place from morning. Since the meal was made to order, it kind of took 30 minutes or so. But it was so worth it! The food was really delicious and the surrounding compliments the food as well.

AJ: Okay lang ba kayo? Baka may gusto pa kayo? [Are you guys okay? Do you want anything else?]
Jana: Hinde. Busog na nga ako eh. [No, I'm full.]
Me: Ang sarap pala dito mura pa! [It's really good in here and cheap as well!]
AJ: Pwede bang pag hatihatian na lang natin yung bill? [Can we just share the bill?]
Me: Of course noh! Kasi kung isa lang mag babayad, unfair! [Of course. One payer won't do, it's unfair]
Jana: Yup. Eto share ko. [Yup. Here's my share.]
***We payed almost 200 pesos for all of it. I think it was a good deal.***


Me: Oh. Ano na? Ano na gagawin natin? [Now what should we do?]


I was thinking of going back to our place since it's almost 9PM.
I was HOPING they'd say time to go home. But freaking big mouth Jana suggested we'de go to the public market and browse. Of course AJ agreed. Actually I had fun walking at the night public market. There's so many "tiange"[sale]. We didn't buy anything since all we got left is enough fare to go home and have some fishballs or BBQ on the side street.


We went back to AJ's place, this time she introduced us to her mom. Her dad is an OFW(Overseas Filipino Worker) so it was only her, her mom, and her younger brother in the house.
Her mom was so random, but in a funny-nice way. She gave us 2o pesos so we could buy ourselves some "samalamig and ihaw-ihaw"(juice and BBQ.)
Me and Jana just looked at each other and giggled. We bought some chips instead because we didn't think 20 pesos would buy us enough juice and BBQ.
After our little snack, we went back to her house so Jana could say bye to the mom.
We walked Jana to the village's gate and she left us. Now it was only me and AJ. (BWAHAHAHA!) Jay Kay! Chillax!
I walked AJ home and I said bye to her mom.

Mommy: Are you going back soon? Are you courting my daughter?

I could see AJ was embarassed and turning red, I don't know though if it's from embarassment or anger. But she looked cute anyway, she always does.

Me: Tita, bata pa po kami! And if ever na liligawan ko si AJ, ikaw po unang makakaalam.[Auntie, we're still young. If ever I'm going to court her, you'll be the first one to know.
AJ: Mama! Nakakhiya ka! Kakakilala mo lang kay Geomarc eh binibiro mo na. [MOM! You're so embarssing. You just met him!]
Me: Haha! Kakatuwa nga si Tita eh. [Haha. Your mom's so funny.]

And I said good bye to Tita. AJ walked me to her house's gate. We chatted for at least 20 minutes before I said bye for real.
We hugged each other. Of course no malice. (YOU GREEN MINDED PEOPLE!)
I took the jeepney home. When I got home, my dad scared me. He was sitting under a tree while smoking. He was holding a big ass bar. I really thought he was going to beat me up. Haha!
He just sat there and asked me where was I and why I'm so late. I told him everything except about going to AJ's house.
It was a fun night. Too bad none of us had a camera. It would've been nice picture.
That night, I slept with the biggest smile i ever had...

end of part 5

[Coming soon! Fictional story. Hopefully I can put like `lil drawings too!]

unknown first love [part 4]

that same day, or should i say night before friday, i was gettin` all giddy and anxious.
i hate getting anxiety attack, it won't let me sleep.
there was so many things going through my mind and it's all making me nervous, twitchy, and somehow warm inside --wierd.
before i went to sleep, i decided to call and tell one of my closest friend about "it".....

my friend was cool about it. haha. she even insisted going with me so she could meet my "secret."
i said yes. i doubt she'll go since she lives like 40mins away from me.
i told her if she could make it in our house before 4:00PM that i'd take her with me.
and it's a done deal.
when we finished talking, i quickly called "secret" to tell that i might bring a friend with me, it was okay for "secret."
since i'm bringing a friend with me, i suggested that we'll just go to their neightborhood to pick "secret" up,
and we'll figure out what to do instead of going to the park in my neighborhood.
and we agreed on that, we'll just meet at the village's gate.

*FRIDAY!*
my mom woked me up so early for school.
school time went by so quickly, next thing i know class was over.
i didn't saw "secret" on the jeepney this time.....
and i was so excited to worry about it.
when i got home, i called my friend, let's call her "Jana", to ask if she could still go.
she said she can. so i told her to meet me up at Gilbert's Resto Bar just two blocks away from my house.
around three PM, i started to get ready. my mom asked me if where am i going, i told her just visiting a friend in the next neighborhood. i asked my mom for 60pesos just to add with my saved allowances.
quarter before four, i walked to the Resto Bar where i saw jana.
we decided to walk since it's near.
we got there at the village's gate past 4:30 and we just waited for quite sometime
`til i saw "secret's" smiling face while waving at us....

end of part 4

unknown first love [part 3]

*October 2, 2003 Thursday*
the day before our "rendezvous," we saw each other at that jeepney- the same jeepney, wierd.
this time the jeep was crowded but it's okay with me since i'm sitting across and facing "secret."
we haven't talked since our last phone conversation so we had a lot of cathhing up to do.
since we weren't that close yet, it was still kind of akward for me; i don't know `bout "secret."
this time, "secret" broke the silence by asking if we can stop at Walter Mart to hang out for a bit.
and i said, "sige ba. basta libre mo ako pamasahe pauwe." [okay, as long as you pay for my fare.]
and "secret" replied, "no problem. ako naman nag-aya eh. haha." [no problem. i asked anyway.]

......***......***......

"oh Walter Mart oh. may bababa ba dyan?!" the driver yelled. [Walter Mart, anyone's going down!?]
"opo. teka lang po!" and we hopped down the jeepney. [yes. just wait.]
when we we're crossing the road, "secret" grabbed my hand so we could go walked together. i guess.
i thought it was cute, sweet, and thoughtful.
"secret" didn't let go of my hand even though we're inside the building.
[for Filipinos, holding hands don't mean anything unless it's given a malice. i think?]
we browsed through shops and kiosks around the building until "secret" got hungry.
i requested that we should just eat at the stands outside cause it's much cheaper than the fast food chains inside.
i would love to eat at the fast food chains, but honestly i was trying to save money.
"secret" is way too persuasive, so i agreed that we'll eat at Chowking.

i ordered special halo-halo and "secret" ordered a congee.
i thought it was kind of hot weather for a congee, so i settled for a special halo-halo with 2 scoops of ice cream; mango and ube of course.
so much for a fast food. it took us 20 mins to get our food.
when we sat, people we're looking at us and it's making me blush.
i guess i'm just not used being in public with someone; like a date.
"secret" said we should act like we're dating to fool people.
i thought it was an immature idea but why not, right? so i agreed.
in my mind, how i wish it's for real.
we enjoyed our congee and halo-halo.
i really enjoy "secret" being in my company.
i wish we wouldn't stop pretending.
when we finished eating our "mirienda", we went to second floor
to play at the arcade. i think i at least spent 30 pesos on non-sense.
but hey, if it means being with "secret" it is so worth it!
unfortunately, everything must come to an end.
we decided to go home and continue happy times tomorrow at our "rendezvous."
so we went home and part ways.
haha. and yes. "secret" paid for my fare.
what a friend :]

end of part 3

unknown first love [part 2]

***phone ringed***

me: hello? *what a sexy voice! ^^*
"secret": hello po. pwede po kay geom? [hello, can i talk to geomarc?]
me: si geomarc po ito, sino po sila? [this is he, who's this?]
"secret": oy geom! si "secret" ito! [hey geom! this is "secret".]
me: oh...napatawaga ka. [oh. why did you call?]
"secret": bored kasi ako eh. walang magawa. hehe. [i'm bored. i have nothing else to do. hehe.]
me: ganun, last resort ako? [what am i? your last resort?]
"secret": hehe...hinde naman sa ganon! [hehe..uhm not quiet.]


thank god we didn't have a caller ID.
or else i might get in trouble! haha.
September 28, 2003....the first time "secret" called me.
we talked about a lot of things- school, family, life, friends, love life, and suchs.
i really love talking to "secret". very fun to talk with...and seems like a real nice person.
we talked for about atleast 3hours or so.....it could go longer.
but my mom is getting mad at me for hogging the phone.
"hoy bata ka! kanina ka pa nakikipag chismisan dyan ha! ako naman!"
haha!. that's family. you hate them but you love them more.
before we hanged up, we set up a "rendezvous".
since "secret" live nearby (about 12 blocks.)
we decided just to meet in my neighborhood, and we'll just hang out at a nearby park."


"secret": okay....sa friday ha! [on friday okay?]
me: oo. sige na. pinapagalitan na ako dito! haha! kita-kits na lang sa jeep ha. maybe. [okay. i need to go. my mom is getting mad at me! haha! see you at the jeep]
"secret": bye. ingats :) [bye. take care]
me: kaw din. bye. [you too. bye]

haha! kaka-kilig to the bones! ^^ nyaaaaw!

end of part 2

unknown first love. [part 1]

who's you first love? mine is "secret"
before i met "secret", i had no clue or maybe i just didn't care `bout "love"
i thought it was just a word to explain or describe that you like someone.
often times whenever i would write on my friend's slam book,
there's always one question that really made me to stop, think, and feel.
that question's answer is still unkown for me; okay maybe not unknown but more like vague.
vague because i think i might have an idea on what is it `bout.
what's the question?.......what is love?.....or define love; they're both the same!
always my answer will be a "go-figure";
love is like a rosary always full of mystery. or love is a strong feeling of "like-ness" to someone that can't be describe. and my favorite one......LOVE is blind.
now that i think `bout it, those are partially true....well atleast from my experience.




i first experienced this so-called "love" at the beggining of my 6th grade. yes. it was "secret."
we went to a different school and only met on a jeepney. haha.
the moment i got inside the vehicle "secret" just stood out from the other passengers.
that moment i noticed that "secret" is FRIGGIN cute. so i decided to sit next to "secret."
"oh sheet! ang bango at cute nito ha!", that's what i thought when i sat next to "secret."
so before i lose my mind, i decided to pay for the fare. "mah, bayad po. isang rocka." after that i have all the time in the world to gaze at "secret". haha
maybe halfway to my destination, an angel's voice was heard. "paki pasa po, bayad isang santa rita."
then i looked on my side it was "secret" wanting me to pass along the fare. so i did. haha.
i touched "secret's" hand it was so soft. i touched it twice cause i gave the change to "secret".
since it will still be another 20minutes to get home, i decided to make a conversation with "secret". so i broke the ice with my pleasure with the question "uhm what school do you go to?".
haha. it was obviously obvious what school "secret" attended cause of the logo in the uniform.
so much for being sleeek. but "secret" answered anyway. and that's the start of a fun conversation. we got along pretty quickly and we were comfortable at each other's company.
it was amazing. before i went down, we exchanged digits and e-mails.
"mah para! sige ha. sa susunod naman ulet. call me?"
..............

end of part one.