"past is past, you should move on"
that's what my best friend told me when i asked for advice about moving on with my life.
clearly she was right. but still, it's a little vague for me.
i don't see the point of moving on with out N.
odds are N has moved on. no, wait let me rephrase that. i know that N has moved on.
i know N is happy right now. N has moved on, why can't i?
is it because we've know each other for so long and it's hard for me to forget what happened between us?
or is it because i'm still holding grudges?
maybe it's both. isn't holding grudes bad? then why am i holding grudge?
N has moved one. i should moved on as well.
if i can;t do it now, i must sooner or later.
it's for the best. no goodbyes please.
just a "see you later."
